Safety

Through doing a fourth step something got revealed to me, that I could not see before opening those corners of my mind. Every grievance that I had, every story that I was validating and telling myself had absolutely nothing to do with another person. I just made up a story because I did not feel save. That was so revelatory to me. I just did not feel save. And I realized that in so many situations I don’t feel save, yes, almost all the time. Now, realizing that that was my problem I had a choice. I had a choice to decide for God. And pray to God instead of making up storied that have no reality whatsoever. Yes, and herein lies my freedom. Wow, that is beautiful, the complete freedom in accepting my uncertainty. Yes, now I stay uncertain all of the time. And it just makes me so happy, because I don’t have to change you or fix the situation or solve anything. No in fact I just give up. Every single one of my action have brought me to a devastation and now I choose again for something else. I choose for God and that means for me to stand still, wait a moment longer and see which gift God is offering me in this moment.

There is one life and that I share with God!

The lesson of today from A Course in Miracles tells me the there is one life and that I share with GOD. It confronts me with all of my ideas, but in particular with my idea about death. Ideas don’t leave their source. That does not leave me with a lot of option. Actually the only one that I see is to forgive myself in every moment.

All time is going on all the time!

If all the time is going on all the time all the problem cease to exist, because the problem and the solution are in the exact same point in my mind and  I can choose which one to keep active in my mind.  What I focus on expands. Jesus tells me  that I was created in the perfect love of God himself. Through my focusing on the problem I can never see that that is true. So I was given the means to collapse time. Since all the power in heaven and earth is given on to me, I can merge my self that sees the problem and my self that is already waiting for me in completely sinlessness and holiness at the end of the world and come together in a moment of singularity. That moment must be now. So all the time is going on all the time. I am meeting you right now in a moment of joy and gratitude and we realize we are not separated  through space and time. So - Hi there. Welcome to my mind!