Gratitude

It took me a long time just to be grateful. And now I am so grateful for every little thing, it is amazing to me that through the simple change of my mind my whole world changes in front of my eyes. Literally the world disappears when I give myself to this present moment, and then I can only be grateful. I learn so much every moment just in listening to God and the Universe and following those instructions. I really need to listen. Need to listen for that voice in my mind that tells me that I am already whole and perfect as God created me.
My love for God is just so strong. I guess that’s why I am at Endeavor Academy because all we do here is celebrating our love for God and sharing that with each other. I am so happy to have found a place in my mind where I can just be with God all the time! Thank you Father.

The desire for God!

"Truth is restored to you through your desire, as it was lost to you through your desire for something else."
Ch20, VIII A Course In Miracles
The quote above just shows me, how I get the result of what I want. This is also connected with a post before about responsibility. A very ancient and well known truth is that what you give energy expands. My desire for God drives my actions and thoughts and cannot not make me happy. As much as my desire for God grows as much grows my attention, time spent with God and my love for God.
The thing that always gets me is, that I cannot find God by myself. And I think this is a truth that has been overlooked a lot. I can only find God through loving my neighbor as myself. As long as I am still afraid of another person, I am afraid of God. This brings me away from all the concepts of spirituality searching and brings me right back where I find myself in this moment. This there anything that upsets me - my only answer to that can be love and a desire for God.

A Course In Miracles

The Course In Miracles bring me always back to me. And gives me ultimately only one question: "Are you happy?" If you are, why are you reading this (you must be searching for something), and if you are not start reading the course in miracles:  it simple offers me a mind training to see what I have created differently and consequently be in a state of mind that is not of this world. That is a joy that comes without a cause and a peace and freedom that is far beyond anything you could ever think of. It lifts me out of every turmoil that I find myself and shows me how I can change my mind about everything.

I am responsible

"I AM responsible for what I see.
I CHOSE the feelings I experience,
and I DECIDED ON the goal I would achieve.
And everything that SEEMS to happen TO me,
I ASKED FOR and received as I had asked."

A Course In Miracles, Chapter 21

An E-mail to a friend….

I never pray for something specific like that you sell your house very soon, because in truth you don’t know what the best is for you. You have no idea.
The only thing that I know for sure is that God’s plan for salvation works perfectly. My only prayer is for you and me that we realize who we are in truth and that we can express. I can only be grateful for whatever situation I find myself, I chose it myself. But then I pray to God to make the situation better or to go away -  that just does not make sense to me at all. It depends on me -  taking responsibility for where ever I find myself and to see that I have chosen this situation and then something can change. A Course  in Miracles teaches me over and over again the perfection of me - the holy son of God himself - herein lays my focus and nothing else. This is the only thing that will make me happy, my conscious contact with God. The part that I always forget is the listening part. I am way to busy praying for what I want, that I miss that God is already speaking to me and leading me the way that is best for me. That is so incredible. I love A Course in Miracles and I love God.
Thank you so much for everything. Don’t make yourself so small.

I love you
Martina

New

I am glad that I am exactly where I am at the moment. And that is a miracle. That I change my mind to be happy for no reason whatsoever and not to seek approval or permission just to be or to do anything. This is a new day. A new chapter in the awakening of my mind. A new me that is approaching a different mind set all together. One that is not connected with anything that I thought before. Something completely new is coming in through the new openness and vulnerability that I am allow to keep while joining with you.