I am my own certainty!
There is nothing like being certain about who I am. That is the only thing no one can ever take away from me. That is the spring board into the total freedom of my mind. “Don’t let the world tell you who you are” is my teachers favorite sentence for me. And I thought I got it, and then again I thought I got it, but now I think that I am starting to get it. Spiritual awakening is nothing that can be understood with a conceptual mind. It is occurring to you in whatever from you allow it to occur. But it is happening. Every moment is the enfoldment of the most precious moment, that has been given me to be certain. That moment is the moment of healing my mind from all the guilt, fear, pride and wrong perception I put out there. Out there to avoid the emptiness inside. This moment has been given me to fill this emptiness with light. Light is certainty of self. I am that light.
I want to share Lesson 50 from A Course In Miracles with you. This Lesson just blows me away.
“Here is the answer to every problem that confronts you today and tomorrow and throughout time. In this world, you believe you are sustained by everything but God. Your faith is placed in the most trivial and insane symbols; pills, money, “protective” clothing, “influence,” “prestige,” being liked, knowing the “right” people, and an endless list of forms of nothingness which you endow with magical powers. All these things are your replacements for the Love of God. All these things are cherished to ensure a body identification. They are songs of praise to the ego.
Do not put your faith in the worthless. It will not sustain you. Only the Love of God will protect you in all circumstances. It will lift you out of every trial, and raise you high above all the perceived dangers of this world into a climate of perfect peace and safety. It will transport you into a state of mind which nothing can threaten, nothing can disturb, and nothing can intrude upon the eternal calm of the Son of God.
Put not your faith in illusions. They will fail you. Put all your faith in the Love of God within you, eternal, changeless and forever unfailing. This is the answer to whatever confronts you today. Through the Love of God in you, you can resolve all seeming difficulties without effort and in sure confidence. Tell yourself this often today. It is a declaration of release from the belief in idols. It is your acknowledgment of the truth about yourself.
Twice today, morning and evening, let the idea for today sink deep into your consciousness. Repeat it, think about it, let related thoughts come to help you recognize its truth, and allow peace to flow over you like a blanket of protection and surety. Let no idle and foolish thoughts enter to disturb the holy mind of the Son of God. Such is the Kingdom of Heaven. Such is the resting-place where your Father has placed you forever.”
Fear of Healing
You are sick for a purpose. But it’s not the purpose you think. It’s not that God has put upon you this spell of sickness that you can learn a valuable lesson. I mean, who is God if he has to hurt his son to learn, that just does not make sense at all. But you are sick because you want to be. You are getting something out of your sickness and that is why it has a very specific purpose for you.
That’s why taking medicine does not really heal your sickness, because your sickness is just a symptom, it’s not the source of the problem. And as you might have experienced before, when you remove a weed without it’s roots it will sooner or later grow back. So the sickness will come back again and again until the underlying problem has been solved and healed. So you are afraid of healing because you have set up this whole defense system not to be wholly joyous and open to communicate the pure love of God. Your sickness lets you stay small and lets you operate in the manner familiar to you. Yes, when you really question it and really look at the cause of the sickness, it does not make sense to keep it at all. That’s why you do everything not to find out what the cause of the sickness is. You don’t want to be healed, you don’t want to change. You don’t want your mind to be turned upside down and disappear into the heart of God, because you are so attached to what you think reality is. This reality that you judge as being true is beginning to crumble all around you. There is really no foundation for you to stand on anymore. And still the resistance to change is too big to actually let go of your identity. It’s always the same old story.
We have one problem – that is that we think we are separate from God – and one solution – that God who is all powerful just can’t be separate from you. And we are trying everything not to remember that premise. I don’t know what it will take for you to step out without knowing and let yourself be healed from all the ancient hurts you carry around. But I do know that reading this article is the beginning of what is going to be the best journey of your life. The journey home to your Father.
Change one thing
In the simplicity of just the minimalistic idea of changing just 1 thing lies for me over and over again the miracle that I have been praying for. A miracle is an act. It’s not a phenomenon that is going to happen to you, but an active decision for a change in your mind. There are no difficulties in miracles. The miracle principles from the first Chapter of a Course in Miracles hits me already like a pan on the head, telling me to wake up and not differentiate between the fragmented parts of my world. Your awakening is as certain as the fact that you can’t do anything for it or the believe that all of your efforts will be rewarded greatly. All of your efforts are not necessary for the recognition that you are already the holy son of God. Awakening is not a doing it is an undoing of all the concepts that you are stubbornly holding unto. We all have it backwards, working on ourselves trying to improve the thing that we think we are, trying to be spiritual correct in order to get to the imagined goal to be one with the universe and joyous and happy.
And when we are there, when we jump for joy and gratitude we realize that our effort was not necessary, that we are as God created us and we are wholly loved and wholly lovable.
So is all the effort necessary? Yes but only for the recognition that it is not necessary. I need to do stuff, be passionate about something, but I do not need to work on myself and figure myself out. That will be a byproduct of being passionate about something.
The one thing I need to change is my idea about myself, for me that always starts with little acts of kindness toward myself and expands from there on outward an ever expanding miracle who’s blessing I am unable to count. That’s why I call this blog explosion of gratitude at least for now.
Standing in the forgiven world
Forgiveness is the key to happiness. (A Course In Miracles Lesson 121) Forgiveness offers me everything I want. (A Course In Miracles Lesson 122) Forgiveness is a practice that lets me see that nothing ever happened. That the grievance that I once hold onto just verified my identity. The other person played the perfect role, so I could justify myself as a victim. And also justified my need to practice forgiveness. Being a victim I am poor and in need of a lot of help. There is this aura of neediness and fear around me and I can never truly let anyone join with me completely or let myself be loved completely. There is never a shortage of situations that I need to forgive. And in that I can get caught up in forgiveness. But there is a also time when I need to go beyond forgiveness and just accept the reality about myself which is the holy son of God himself. With that acceptance I stand in the certainty that it has been accomplished. I stand in the forgiven world. From that point I am free to and open to receive instructions from the universe. I am free to be new and not hold unto the past. It is the moment when I recognize, that I have not done anything wrong. That I am without guilt and that I am the expression of the certainty of God’s love. That everything that ever happened was perfectly orchestrated to lead me to this point of my awakening. Were I have finally gotten over myself and joined in with several other teachers of God in a whole communication.
Honesty
The second Characteristic of a teacher of God is honesty.
II. Honesty
All other traits of God’s teachers rest on trust. Once that has been achieved, the others cannot fail to follow. Only the trusting can afford honesty, for only they can see its value. Honesty does not apply only to what you say. The term actually means consistency. There is nothing you say that contradicts what you think or do; no thought opposes any other thought; no act belies your word; and no word lacks agreement with another. Such are the truly honest. At no level are they in conflict with themselves. Therefore it is impossible for them to be in conflict with anyone or anything.
The peace of mind which the advanced teachers of God experience is largely due to their perfect honesty. It is only the wish to deceive that makes for war. No one at one with himself can even conceive of conflict. Conflict is the inevitable result of self-deception, and self-deception is dishonesty. There is no challenge to a teacher of God. Challenge implies doubt, and the trust on which God’s teachers rest secure makes doubt impossible. Therefore they can only succeed. In this, as in all things, they are honest. They can only succeed, because they never do their will alone. They choose for all mankind; for all the world and all things in it; for the unchanging and unchangeable beyond appearances; and for the Son of God and his Creator. How could they not succeed? They choose in perfect honesty, sure of their choice as of themselves.
Beyond my self identity
The last few weeks were incredible. A month ago I packed my suitcase and since then I have been traveling all over, wherever I was invited. It is such an adventure to be open to the present moment and let myself completely be used. I love it.
My life stopped a few weeks ago, when I realized that there was no place on earth where I had to be nor anything that I had to do. Finally I was ready to be completely used by Jesus, to truly fulfill my function. Finally I had used everything up that constituted the development of my identity here. The freedom of the deliverance of my self constructed identity is enormous. I am not myself alone. The universe does not recognize the little self that I have made. So when I am caught up with my body and my identity I am literally nothing, I am not seen by the universe. No wonder I felt worthless, lonely and not loved – I didn´t even exist. The joke was on me again. Now I can laugh, having once again joined the universe in a mission beyond my little self identity. Beyond the necessity to proof myself to God who already created me perfect. Now I accept the fear that I find myself in and use it as an ignition for love. It´s just energy. It´s all just energy that expresses itself through me.
The end of fear, doubt and jealousy as the end of yourself.
Have you lived your life in a state where fear dominated and happiness was a nice short break from the agony of not knowing who you are and what exactly it is that you are doing here? Have you prayed to God and felt no change in you? That describes how I was and felt. Lost in accumulation of different activities to find some meaning here and to make it all worth while. While in me nagging was this constant feeling of failure. Where it came from I did not know. But I knew I believed in it and gave it meaning. All the meaning it had for me. It gave me the strength to keep myself small, to hide my light and pretend that who I am doesn’t matter. And that it is ok with me to deny myself everything. You are so immersed with that image that you have of yourself that even if you heard that it is not true you would not believe it. You would also not believe that God love you so much. That he misses you. So this is an impossible situation for both of us. You because you want a different experience of yourself but keep holding on to your self image with everything that you have got. And me because God’s love is shining in me now and I don’t believe a word that you are telling me about yourself. Letting go of your self image seems impossible. But it is not only necessary but also inevitable. There is a light in you the universe longs to behold. “If you but knew how much your Father yearns to have you recognize your sinlessness, you would not let his Voice appeal in vain, nor turn away from His replacement for the fearful images and dreams you made.
(A Course In Miracles, Workbook, What is the holy spirit?)
Coming to terms with your own mind
There is only you. You in your own mind that is what it comes down to. There are too many tricks the mind plays with us day in and day out. It creates the perfect ilussion that I am the victim and that I have to justify the things that I do or don’t do. In all of the struggle of the mind to just be at the peace there is a moment where you you can’t stand it any more and just stop it. It always comes from my own mind not wanting the struggle anymore. Happiness is a decicion I must make. The same as heaven and any other thing.
Jesus told me through a course in miracles that he can’t take away fear from me, otherwise I would not recognise that power of my mind anymore. That is really amazing to me. It is my decision not to be in fear anymore and noone can help me with this. It’s like all of Jesus’s instruction the clearest of all. Just don’t do it anymore. The whole power of the universe is given me. What do I use it for? For my little live? To transform it and feel a little happier? Or do I realize the function that I have been given to be the light of the world in every instant. And make everyone around me happy no matter what senario. Don’t get fooled with everything that the illusion bring. There is only one anwer to everything and that is love. Pure love. Because that is what you are. That is the challenge to not except anything else from yourself and anyone else. You are not the victim of you mind. You are everything there is and so all powerful. There is nothing to be afraid of and nothing to blame for your missery. It’s an invitation to live and rejoice in the love that you are!
Beyond the scientific discovery that there is no world.
I am actually already sick of all those scientists telling us in various new age movies, that this world really doesn’t exist. Telling us that we can change our minds. That we are making up the world that we are seeing. They have been saying this for years now, and nothing realy happened. Yes, there was a shift of consioucness, that made this world explainable to everyone. But what’s missing is the experinece behind it. I have to include myself in the calculation that there is no world. The simple fact that I know that there is no world, puts me in a place of absolute responsibility.
The first thing that I want to change is my human habits, get more productive, more organized and so forth. While I am occupying myself with my new found exiting solution I miss the whole point all over again. No, there is no world. There is no little life that needs rearranging or better organization. What life?
Beyond all concepts there is truth. There is the truth that we have been always looking for. Do I have this special key to this incredible truth? Yes, and you do to. This is the moment where you no longer deny yourself everything. That is the whole universe – it’s at your disposal. It’s waiting for you to stop organizing your littleness and start creating. Happiness, fulfillment and joy will come out of this new venture of joining and communicating in a whole new way with your fellow human being. Yes, my mind is pretty wacky and seemingly all over the place. But I am sick of making sense, because nothing makes sense here anyway. And no one will read this anyway, this is for me for my reminder to be co-creator and take my appointed spot in this universe. And also to extend this invitation out to you. Come and join me in this new creating. I am so glad, we are doing this together.
Activation of my mind.
Whenever I think of writing a blogpost I have incredible ideas, and by the time I get to the computer and sit in front of the screen all the ideas are gone. I don’t like that fact, because I end up not writing blogpost for a long time, although I think about it a lot. But that is not the same of course. That is the same with the Course, I can think of it all I want, and the ideas are beautiful and everything, but until I take the action to practice the course and be a miracle worker myself, absolutely nothing will happen. There is nothing more active than not doing anything. If I want something to happen in my life I have to give it energy. What give energy to expands. Yes, I give my life and will over to God and I will get all of God’s help, but it is up to me to activate that in my mind and to actively foster that. My awakening does not happen without me, although it happens despite of me.
Whatever you want to happen to you or in your life – DO IT! Wow what a concept, what a simplicity, but still it seams so hard sometimes. It’s easier to blame God for the thing that don’t happen and for the unhappiness that I experience. God is not responsible for my experience here, I am. This is the only way out of here for me.
