Beyond my self identity

The last few weeks were incredible. A month ago I packed my suitcase and since then I have been traveling all over, wherever I was invited. It is such an adventure to be open to the present moment and let myself completely be used. I love it.
My life stopped a few weeks ago, when I realized that there was no place on earth where I had to be nor anything that I had to do. Finally I was ready to be completely used by Jesus, to truly fulfill my function. Finally I had used everything up that constituted the development of my identity here. The freedom of the deliverance of my self constructed identity is enormous. I am not myself alone. The universe does not recognize the little self that I have made. So when I am caught up with my body and my identity I am literally nothing, I am not seen by the universe. No wonder I felt worthless, lonely and not loved – I didn´t even exist. The joke was on me again. Now I can laugh, having once again joined the universe in a mission beyond my little self identity. Beyond the necessity to proof myself to God who already created me perfect. Now I accept the fear that I find myself in and use it as an ignition for love. It´s just energy. It´s all just energy that expresses itself through me.