The desire for God!
"Truth is restored to you through your desire, as it was lost to you through your desire for something else."
Ch20, VIII A Course In Miracles
The quote above just shows me, how I get the result of what I want. This is also connected with a post before about responsibility. A very ancient and well known truth is that what you give energy expands. My desire for God drives my actions and thoughts and cannot not make me happy. As much as my desire for God grows as much grows my attention, time spent with God and my love for God.
The thing that always gets me is, that I cannot find God by myself. And I think this is a truth that has been overlooked a lot. I can only find God through loving my neighbor as myself. As long as I am still afraid of another person, I am afraid of God. This brings me away from all the concepts of spirituality searching and brings me right back where I find myself in this moment. This there anything that upsets me - my only answer to that can be love and a desire for God.