2. Step
The second step is all about my relationship with God. Oh my God this is juicy. All the ideas that I had about God are coming up and want to be healed. I found myself being Agnostic, Atheist and Theist. I recognize all those parts in me to be free to just accept God as he is without the concept around him that make me who I am. That make a self concept of myself that I can hold on to and defend, and sometimes even fight for. I don’t know whether this makes any sense, but I think this is the most incredible idea. That through the action of defining myself, I keep God outside of myself. I defend myself from him through a self-concept that I have made rather then accepting myself exactly the way I am. In Chapter 16, section VIII from A Course In Miracles, “The only real relationship,” (one of my favorite sections from A Course In Miracles), is shown to me how much God loves me and that I would not want anything else but God. This second steps leads me there as well. It leads me to the recognition that there actually is a Higher Power, and that is had nothing to do with what I thought is was, and that I actually could have a communication with that Higher Power. This gives me so much hope and gratitude.