Today is cleaning day, like everyday, I am taking the trash out! - The trash of my mind. Like dust it accumulates so fast, and I don’t really know where it comes from and suddenly a trigger is pulled and I get pissed and I don’t even know why. That is why it is so important for me to do the mind training of A Course In Miracles every waking hour. What does that have to do with trash? Because through applying the ideas given me from the course I have to let go of every single thought that I hold about myself, and about everything else. To be free and in peace. Flash the toilet of your mind and let go of all that has been bothering you, forgiveness is another word for letting go all those silly ideas that keep me trapped and make my life miserable. Yeah it is just time to wake up and realize that all of my ideas are completely wrong, that they don’t mean anything and that I am still as God created me. That I can make my life so much easier by letting go and letting God. So flush that toilet, dust those corners of your mind and take the trash out, it’s about time for you to be free.

I can only get it right here and right now. This statement shook me up when it was mentioned this morning. It also made me very very happy and brought me into the present moment. All my ideas of future happiness and that anything will happen in the future that will be better than right here and now was gone. There is a lot of talk about being in the here and now, but to actually have an experience of it is quite something else. I saw the movie the peaceful warrior and it had a scene where the "master" asks the hero that time is it, and he answers now, and then where are you and the answer is here. And the main character uses that when he experiences a very intense moment and can push trough it through concentrating to it is now and I am here. Every time I remember that I have an experience.

I love how in this lesson Jesus tells me very specifically don’t listen to your thoughts. Quietly step back and choose again. This gives me the immediate experience of of something completely different. It transports me to a different place in my mind, a place where I am happy. It is really that simple. I decide where I hang out in my mind. I love that idea, it makes all that spiritual seeking and stuff so easy and practical. It is easy but I still gotta do it. It requires everything of me. Think about it, I am wrong in every moment. It takes the action of my mind to let go of this whole world entirely in every instant. But it is just like everything else, it’s hard at the beginning and then it becomes a habit. But I tell you what it just feels soooo good. Just to be free and be with God.