I can never tell if I am awake or if I fell asleep again. In the bible it said that Adam feel asleep but nowhere does it say that he woke up. Yes, this is a dream we agreed to that already and had a clear experience of the none reality of this place. This is the beginning of my awakening. But in that journey of my awakening I can never really tell where I am. Where am I in the process of waking up. And all of a sudden I get really happy. I have been trying to wake up for far to long. Have been trying so hard, doing everything that I think is required of me. When in truth I don’t even know what I need to do. All I know is that I don’t have to try so hard . It’s let go and let GOD right? I seem to forget that.
And that is what falling asleep is, just forgetting that I am not in charge. Forgetting that I do have a choice and are able to leave space and time in an instant of letting go. That I am not bound by any laws of man. That I am free, the Holy Son of God himself.

It doesn’t matter where I open A Course in Miracles, it always takes my out of my situation and places me beyond the beyond. Above the battlefield where I look at my problem in a sober way and can heal it without solving it. I just see that from out of time all my problems have already been solved. Or I realize that there is absolutely no solution to my problem and I die into my problem and end up at the same point, the point of release and ressurection.
Oh my God I am so grateful for A Course in Miracles and the solution it offers me in every moment where I am willing to give up my own ideas about everything and step into the miracles that this moment is actually offering me. It’s truly an experience and has nothing to do with any concepts.
Just today a friend was instant messeging me. He wrote paragraphs and paragraphs of course concepts. All I replied was: "It seems that you are in a lot of conflict". Wow, after a moment he said, yes, it seems that in the illusion I am in conflict. What a bullshitter! Oh man, why is it so hard for spiritual people to just admit where they find themselves.
A Lesson in A Course in Miracles says: "Let me recognize the problem so it can be solves."
So I told my friend to just admit that he is in conflict and stay there. I invited him to die into it. That is where all the light is. All the light of the universe is hidden in the energy of conflict. And that is what we are trying to avoid. And using spiritual concepts to talk yourself out of your full blown spiritual awakening is the best way to stay trapped in your human mind forever. So now I invite you to be honest, admit your conflict, stay in it and let it change through doing absolutely nothing.
Welcome home!