All about GOD and how to find him!

Today is cleaning day, like everyday, I am taking the trash out! - The trash of my mind. Like dust it accumulates so fast, and I don’t really know where it comes from and suddenly a trigger is pulled and I get pissed and I don’t even know why. That is why it is so important for me to do the mind training of A Course In Miracles every waking hour. What does that have to do with trash? Because through applying the ideas given me from the course I have to let go of every single thought that I hold about myself, and about everything else. To be free and in peace. Flash the toilet of your mind and let go of all that has been bothering you, forgiveness is another word for letting go all those silly ideas that keep me trapped and make my life miserable. Yeah it is just time to wake up and realize that all of my ideas are completely wrong, that they don’t mean anything and that I am still as God created me. That I can make my life so much easier by letting go and letting God. So flush that toilet, dust those corners of your mind and take the trash out, it’s about time for you to be free.

I love how in this lesson Jesus tells me very specifically don’t listen to your thoughts. Quietly step back and choose again. This gives me the immediate experience of of something completely different. It transports me to a different place in my mind, a place where I am happy. It is really that simple. I decide where I hang out in my mind. I love that idea, it makes all that spiritual seeking and stuff so easy and practical. It is easy but I still gotta do it. It requires everything of me. Think about it, I am wrong in every moment. It takes the action of my mind to let go of this whole world entirely in every instant. But it is just like everything else, it’s hard at the beginning and then it becomes a habit. But I tell you what it just feels soooo good. Just to be free and be with God.

It took me a long time just to be grateful. And now I am so grateful for every little thing, it is amazing to me that through the simple change of my mind my whole world changes in front of my eyes. Literally the world disappears when I give myself to this present moment, and then I can only be grateful. I learn so much every moment just in listening to God and the Universe and following those instructions. I really need to listen. Need to listen for that voice in my mind that tells me that I am already whole and perfect as God created me.
My love for God is just so strong. I guess that’s why I am at Endeavor Academy because all we do here is celebrating our love for God and sharing that with each other. I am so happy to have found a place in my mind where I can just be with God all the time! Thank you Father.

Virtual Reality
The 12 Steps and A Course In Miracles is truly a blessing for me. It takes me always to the point where I don’t want to go. It takes me to the point of release and to the point where I let go of my resistance to reality. Every grievance, expectation, reaction is ulimately a resistance against reality. And forgiveness is not resisting reality.
But these programs take me so much further. It offers me the complete freedom of my mind. The first promise of the 12 step is: We will know a new freedom and a new happiness. When I first read it - my sponsor made me read the promises everyday - I could not believe it. Then one day after reading them for a while, I realized that all of the promises had become true for me. But I had no idea how it had happened. This happens through the grace of God.
One day at a time.