I found that to be totally true in my awakening as well. I need to step back and expand my mind outwards and for a moment let everything be exactly as it is and at the same time let it change through the light. I need that moment of remembering where I am going and who I really am. Even if it looks like that time is not productive in a worldly sense, it brings me so much peace and certainty and is very powerful. That moment of rest. Everyone writes about meditation and stillness and all those spiritual practices and although I don’t call it like that I do what I need to do for my mind to keep clear and empty. This is an invitation for you to take a moment for yourself. And the great thing is it doesn’t take that long. Although it can be rewarding when you spend longer in that space with God. It´s the action of you, checking in with God. Talking to your father and really listening to him. For me this time of Christmas and New Year is a time of reflection and really looking from the higher plane. Although it is good to do that more regularly and keep your mind and channel to God really clear, this time is just a time where I look deeper. Probably also of my situation, where I have no idea what will happen tomorrow. Where I follow God´s guidance in every way. But sometimes I doubt that guidance, thinking, that I should be doing something else. This time of contemplation gives me again the certainty that God´s will for me is perfect happiness and with that as my highest priority I will start this year with a leap into heaven.

II. Honesty

All other traits of God’s teachers rest on trust.  Once that has been achieved, the others cannot fail to follow.  Only the trusting can afford honesty, for only they can see its value.  Honesty does not apply only to what you say.  The term actually means consistency.  There is nothing you say that contradicts what you think or do; no thought opposes any other thought; no act belies your word; and no word lacks agreement with another.  Such are the truly honest.  At no level are they in conflict with themselves.  Therefore it is impossible for them to be in conflict with anyone or anything.

The peace of mind which the advanced teachers of God experience is largely due to their perfect honesty.  It is only the wish to deceive that makes for war.  No one at one with himself can even conceive of conflict.  Conflict is the inevitable result of self-deception, and self-deception is dishonesty.  There is no challenge to a teacher of God.  Challenge implies doubt, and the trust on which God’s teachers rest secure makes doubt impossible.  Therefore they can only succeed.  In this, as in all things, they are honest.  They can only succeed, because they never do their will alone.  They choose for all mankind; for all the world and all things in it; for the unchanging and unchangeable beyond appearances; and for the Son of God and his Creator.  How could they not succeed?  They choose in perfect honesty, sure of their choice as of themselves.

Jesus told me through a course in miracles that he can’t take away fear from me, otherwise I would not recognise that power of my mind anymore. That is really amazing to me. It is my decision not to be in fear anymore and noone can help me with this. It’s like all of Jesus’s instruction the clearest of all. Just don’t do it anymore. The whole power of the universe is given me. What do I use it for? For my little live? To transform it and feel a little happier? Or do I realize the function that I have been given to be the light of the world in every instant. And make everyone around me happy no matter what senario. Don’t get fooled with everything that the illusion bring. There is only one anwer to everything and that is love. Pure love. Because that is what you are. That is the challenge to not except anything else from yourself and anyone else. You are not the victim of you mind. You are everything there is and so all powerful. There is nothing to be afraid of and nothing to blame for your missery. It’s an invitation to live and rejoice in the love that you are!

This is from the Introduction to A Course In Miracles:

“Nothing real can be threatened and nothing unreal exists. Herein lies the peace of God.”

I love it! i love it! I love it! No matter in which situation I find myself I refuse to be the victim of it. This has been my complete salvation. Every day situation appear that make me believe that I have been unfairly treated. And it only depends on me, how I handle them. Who do I choose to be? The holy son of God?
This is not a comfortable teaching, it has nothing to do with comfort or how everything is love and peace, this is where the rubber meets the road. It all depends on a decision in my mind. And I can see how the imagery around me changes in the same moment when I take the decision.
The other day I had to wait for my car in Walmart wandering around through the aisle, I saw a lot of things that created a need for having them in me. I started to feel horrible, since I just perceived lack and the idea that I can’t have them because I can’t afford them. I already found myself getting fearful when I took the decision not to be the victim of this situation. The next thing that happened was that I ran into a brother, I asked for help and another brother showed up as well. So there we where creating a portal of light in the middle of Walmart, standing in the dedication of our singular purpose not to follow the laws of the world any longer but to leave space and time right there and then. Right here and now actually. All fear and lack are gone and what is left is love and peace that does not come from a result of anything, but just from the decision to let my mind be how it truly is. Which is giving and extending itself all the time. How then can I perceive lack, when I am giving myself away? Lack appeared when I started to demand from the universe rather than giving myself away. 
There is always something you can give no matter who you think you are, or where you think you are. You can give right now, what are you waiting for?

I love you!
It’s time to come home!