Right here and right now!
I can only get it right here and right now. This statement shook me up when it was mentioned this morning. It also made me very very happy and brought me into the present moment. All my ideas of future happiness and that anything will happen in the future that will be better than right here and now was gone. There is a lot of talk about being in the here and now, but to actually have an experience of it is quite something else. I saw the movie the peaceful warrior and it had a scene where the "master" asks the hero that time is it, and he answers now, and then where are you and the answer is here. And the main character uses that when he experiences a very intense moment and can push trough it through concentrating to it is now and I am here. Every time I remember that I have an experience.
Let every voice but God’s be still in me.
I love how in this lesson Jesus tells me very specifically don’t listen to your thoughts. Quietly step back and choose again. This gives me the immediate experience of of something completely different. It transports me to a different place in my mind, a place where I am happy. It is really that simple. I decide where I hang out in my mind. I love that idea, it makes all that spiritual seeking and stuff so easy and practical. It is easy but I still gotta do it. It requires everything of me. Think about it, I am wrong in every moment. It takes the action of my mind to let go of this whole world entirely in every instant. But it is just like everything else, it’s hard at the beginning and then it becomes a habit. But I tell you what it just feels soooo good. Just to be free and be with God.
Gratitude
It took me a long time just to be grateful. And now I am so grateful for every little thing, it is amazing to me that through the simple change of my mind my whole world changes in front of my eyes. Literally the world disappears when I give myself to this present moment, and then I can only be grateful. I learn so much every moment just in listening to God and the Universe and following those instructions. I really need to listen. Need to listen for that voice in my mind that tells me that I am already whole and perfect as God created me.
My love for God is just so strong. I guess that’s why I am at Endeavor Academy because all we do here is celebrating our love for God and sharing that with each other. I am so happy to have found a place in my mind where I can just be with God all the time! Thank you Father.
The desire for God!
"Truth is restored to you through your desire, as it was lost to you through your desire for something else."
Ch20, VIII A Course In Miracles
The quote above just shows me, how I get the result of what I want. This is also connected with a post before about responsibility. A very ancient and well known truth is that what you give energy expands. My desire for God drives my actions and thoughts and cannot not make me happy. As much as my desire for God grows as much grows my attention, time spent with God and my love for God.
The thing that always gets me is, that I cannot find God by myself. And I think this is a truth that has been overlooked a lot. I can only find God through loving my neighbor as myself. As long as I am still afraid of another person, I am afraid of God. This brings me away from all the concepts of spirituality searching and brings me right back where I find myself in this moment. This there anything that upsets me – my only answer to that can be love and a desire for God.
A Course In Miracles
The Course In Miracles bring me always back to me. And gives me ultimately only one question: "Are you happy?" If you are, why are you reading this (you must be searching for something), and if you are not start reading the course in miracles: it simple offers me a mind training to see what I have created differently and consequently be in a state of mind that is not of this world. That is a joy that comes without a cause and a peace and freedom that is far beyond anything you could ever think of. It lifts me out of every turmoil that I find myself and shows me how I can change my mind about everything.
I am responsible
"I AM responsible for what I see.
I CHOSE the feelings I experience,
and I DECIDED ON the goal I would achieve.
And everything that SEEMS to happen TO me,
I ASKED FOR and received as I had asked."
A Course In Miracles, Chapter 21
An E-mail to a friend….
I never pray for something specific like that you sell your house very soon, because in truth you don’t know what the best is for you. You have no idea.
The only thing that I know for sure is that God’s plan for salvation works perfectly. My only prayer is for you and me that we realize who we are in truth and that we can express. I can only be grateful for whatever situation I find myself, I chose it myself. But then I pray to God to make the situation better or to go away - that just does not make sense to me at all. It depends on me - taking responsibility for where ever I find myself and to see that I have chosen this situation and then something can change. A Course in Miracles teaches me over and over again the perfection of me – the holy son of God himself – herein lays my focus and nothing else. This is the only thing that will make me happy, my conscious contact with God. The part that I always forget is the listening part. I am way to busy praying for what I want, that I miss that God is already speaking to me and leading me the way that is best for me. That is so incredible. I love A Course in Miracles and I love God.
Thank you so much for everything. Don’t make yourself so small.
I love you
Martina
New
I am glad that I am exactly where I am at the moment. And that is a miracle. That I change my mind to be happy for no reason whatsoever and not to seek approval or permission just to be or to do anything. This is a new day. A new chapter in the awakening of my mind. A new me that is approaching a different mind set all together. One that is not connected with anything that I thought before. Something completely new is coming in through the new openness and vulnerability that I am allow to keep while joining with you.
Safety
Through doing a fourth step something got revealed to me, that I could not see before opening those corners of my mind. Every grievance that I had, every story that I was validating and telling myself had absolutely nothing to do with another person. I just made up a story because I did not feel save. That was so revelatory to me. I just did not feel save. And I realized that in so many situations I don’t feel save, yes, almost all the time. Now, realizing that that was my problem I had a choice. I had a choice to decide for God. And pray to God instead of making up storied that have no reality whatsoever. Yes, and herein lies my freedom. Wow, that is beautiful, the complete freedom in accepting my uncertainty. Yes, now I stay uncertain all of the time. And it just makes me so happy, because I don’t have to change you or fix the situation or solve anything. No in fact I just give up. Every single one of my action have brought me to a devastation and now I choose again for something else. I choose for God and that means for me to stand still, wait a moment longer and see which gift God is offering me in this moment.
There is one life and that I share with God!
The lesson of today from A Course in Miracles tells me the there is one life and that I share with GOD. It confronts me with all of my ideas, but in particular with my idea about death. Ideas don’t leave their source. That does not leave me with a lot of option. Actually the only one that I see is to forgive myself in every moment.
