Forgiveness and giving up poverty

Wow, what a day, when I take responsibility for my life instead of waiting for God to fulfill me everything is happening. I have the tendency to blame everything on God and hope that he will take care of decisions I have to make or uncomfortable situations that I want to avoid. When I realized that I am actually avoiding responsibility in thinking that God will take care ofit, it was a huge revelation. A, I was blind and now I see, type of revelation. One of those really huge one. Where I feel that I literally shook of millenniums of wrong believes about God. The thing about being wrong is that I am convinced that I am right until it gets painful. Pain is a really great motivator. Who really wants to be wrong and forgive? It’s really uncomfortable to be wrong. But it is actually the only growth I can experience. Otherwise I am stuck in the same old “me” thinking… forever and ever. It’s time to be wrong and let everyone know that I have been wrong. What the heck, I got nothing to loose.
Hey, I have been wrong about you. “Jesus, please reveal him to me how he really is.”
Thank you!