You are way to beautiful to rot in this body
You are way to genius to keep yourself so small
You are way to valuable to keep yourself separate from God
You are way to meaningful to sustain barriers between you and your brother
You are way to divine to hide yourself
You are way to lovable to keep holding on to fear
You are way to trustworthy to keep yourself separate from everyone
You are way to holy to content yourself with the love from this world
You are way to awake to keep playing this role of past identity
You are way to certain to hold on to grievances
You are way to advanced not to go all the way
You are as God created you!

I love you!
It’s time to come home!

Hi!  I just wanted to invite you to the most incredible event, your resurrection .
Go to  the Miracles Healing Center Website to find out all the details.

The lesson for today from A Course In Miracles , "There is nothing to fear", just puts it so clear, I have no choice. I can just kick my own behind and let go all of my thoughts of fear that where lingering in my mind. Why would I wait for the fear to be converted and overcome, when Jesus is right here with me, telling me that I have no need for fear anymore. That literally now I can be free and go on with what my father wills for me.

The healing occurs when I least expect it. It’s just there coming out of nowhere. But at the same time emerging out of the necessity  for it. It had become a necessity that I gave up on. Healing is not the result of anything. To heal is to make happy. To heal is to make whole.

Why am I only nice to you when I heard that you are having a bad time? Why do I only care when I get something out of it? There are no answers just actions. Actions that get me far beyond my plain lazy being Mrs. spoiled brat. Being the victim of my dream. It really depends on me and my honest extension of myself no matter what the situation may be. The only answer there is is love. And I pretend I don’t care, pretend that you are not even there. So I can stay in my save zone. God, I am dying, but I am save in my little box. Why? Just to keep my Ego- Identity in place. So don’t rock my boat, it’s so comfortable, I am in pain but it is so comfortable. Do you remember that thinking?…That is over now…
Now is the time to forgive and get out of here. So I forgive you, and I am truly sorry for not caring, for not being a true friend. For choosing comfort over action. For being so self involved that I literally didn’t see you. That I just wanted you to recognize me, but did not care to give anything myself.
I am sorry. And now I am going out without knowing. Are you coming?

It’s one of these days, where I prayed for peace the moment I woke up and all that has been happening to me is the opposite. Does God have a good sense of humor, or do I have no clue what’s going on? The good thing that I experienced today was, that I let myself be exactly the way I was, I felt bad and that’s just how it was. I think I have never gotten so many hugs. When I think back now I start to smile, out of nowhere people come just hugging me today. That’s so incredible. All those other days when I think I have it together, I am actually defending myself from love. I don’t have it together and I never will. But I will go out without knowing. With the trust that I am taken care of.

As I was reading through a 12 step book one line jumped out at me. It talked about one of 12 Step Promises.
Fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us. The author says that the fear might not be gone all together, but the less she thinks she needs to impress people the less afraid she is.
So the whole day I had that phrase in my mind, I don’t need to impress you! I don’t need to impress you!
Only then did I realize that often my motivation was to impress someone.
I have to recognize the problem so it can be solved.
The moment when I realized I wanted to impress everyone this huge pressure fell from me. Oh my God, I had no idea. Or maybe I did in the back of my mind, but it was not conscious so I counld’nt change it.
I feel completely happy and free. That same day I was at a party, and I never experienced myself so relaxed and at easy around. I don’t need to impress you! - a statement of freedom and joy. It really works if I work it.
I love it!!!!!!!!!

As I am approaching making amends my sponsor gave me this prayer, that works every time in the most miraculous way.
The 5 rights prayer:
I pray for
the right time
the right place
the right attitude on my part
the right receptivity on the other part
and the right outcome for everyone involved
Amen.
Thank you!

No, not everything is always perfect, but I gotta start to be grateful somewhere, sometimes for something. I always want everything perfect so I can be happy. Happiness is not a result. The Course in Miracles does not teach me results. It does not teach me before and after. Or a process with which I can achieve my happiness.
A Course in Miracles gives me a release from everything here and now.

Like the lesson for today: “Nothing I see means anything”. It has nothing to do with anything that I think, it takes me out of any thought process that I am in, and catapults me into this moment, it’s irresistible. That’s why I love it so much.

I wanna talk about fear today. Fear is a force that seems to run peoples life’s, making them sick and leading them nowhere. Fear is the main emotion a human being experiences all the time. I know because I experience it, not knowing that I could have a different feeling about myself. Fear was such a part of my life that I did not even notice how strong it was. I knew I was afraid of absolutely everything and everyone, but had no means to change it. I saw that some of my friends just changed themselves and adjusted around that feeling of fear, incorporating it into their lives. I could never do that. I could not adjust to it. Through the application of the mind training of A Course in Miracles and the 12 Steps, I lost my fear. This makes me cry. Just the thought alone that I don’t have to be afraid of you anymore makes me so happy. I can shine my light and love in your presents without having to hide it in my ideas of what I am, or better what I am not. I can just be myself. And that is an offer for you to get over your fear and just be who you are. What have you got to loose? Fear is just pure laziness. Fear is just a misinterpreted emotion, nothing more. There is absolutely nothing to fear in all of the universe.