Fear
I wanna talk about fear today. Fear is a force that seems to run peoples life’s, making them sick and leading them nowhere. Fear is the main emotion a human being experiences all the time. I know because I experience it, not knowing that I could have a different feeling about myself. Fear was such a part of my life that I did not even notice how strong it was. I knew I was afraid of absolutely everything and everyone, but had no means to change it. I saw that some of my friends just changed themselves and adjusted around that feeling of fear, incorporating it into their lives. I could never do that. I could not adjust to it. Through the application of the mind training of A Course in Miracles and the 12 Steps, I lost my fear. This makes me cry. Just the thought alone that I don’t have to be afraid of you anymore makes me so happy. I can shine my light and love in your presents without having to hide it in my ideas of what I am, or better what I am not. I can just be myself. And that is an offer for you to get over your fear and just be who you are. What have you got to loose? Fear is just pure laziness. Fear is just a misinterpreted emotion, nothing more. There is absolutely nothing to fear in all of the universe.
The holy Christ is born in my today!
It doesn’t matter where I open A Course in Miracles, it always takes my out of my situation and places me beyond the beyond. Above the battlefield where I look at my problem in a sober way and can heal it without solving it. I just see that from out of time all my problems have already been solved. Or I realize that there is absolutely no solution to my problem and I die into my problem and end up at the same point, the point of release and ressurection.
Oh my God I am so grateful for A Course in Miracles and the solution it offers me in every moment where I am willing to give up my own ideas about everything and step into the miracles that this moment is actually offering me. It’s truly an experience and has nothing to do with any concepts.
Just today a friend was instant messeging me. He wrote paragraphs and paragraphs of course concepts. All I replied was: "It seems that you are in a lot of conflict". Wow, after a moment he said, yes, it seems that in the illusion I am in conflict. What a bullshitter! Oh man, why is it so hard for spiritual people to just admit where they find themselves.
A Lesson in A Course in Miracles says: "Let me recognize the problem so it can be solves."
So I told my friend to just admit that he is in conflict and stay there. I invited him to die into it. That is where all the light is. All the light of the universe is hidden in the energy of conflict. And that is what we are trying to avoid. And using spiritual concepts to talk yourself out of your full blown spiritual awakening is the best way to stay trapped in your human mind forever. So now I invite you to be honest, admit your conflict, stay in it and let it change through doing absolutely nothing.
Welcome home!
Taking out the trash
Today is cleaning day, like everyday, I am taking the trash out! – The trash of my mind. Like dust it accumulates so fast, and I don’t really know where it comes from and suddenly a trigger is pulled and I get pissed and I don’t even know why. That is why it is so important for me to do the mind training of A Course In Miracles every waking hour. What does that have to do with trash? Because through applying the ideas given me from the course I have to let go of every single thought that I hold about myself, and about everything else. To be free and in peace. Flash the toilet of your mind and let go of all that has been bothering you, forgiveness is another word for letting go all those silly ideas that keep me trapped and make my life miserable. Yeah it is just time to wake up and realize that all of my ideas are completely wrong, that they don’t mean anything and that I am still as God created me. That I can make my life so much easier by letting go and letting God. So flush that toilet, dust those corners of your mind and take the trash out, it’s about time for you to be free.
The 12 Step and A Course In Miracle
Virtual Reality
The 12 Steps and A Course In Miracles is truly a blessing for me. It takes me always to the point where I don’t want to go. It takes me to the point of release and to the point where I let go of my resistance to reality. Every grievance, expectation, reaction is ulimately a resistance against reality. And forgiveness is not resisting reality.
But these programs take me so much further. It offers me the complete freedom of my mind. The first promise of the 12 step is: We will know a new freedom and a new happiness. When I first read it – my sponsor made me read the promises everyday – I could not believe it. Then one day after reading them for a while, I realized that all of the promises had become true for me. But I had no idea how it had happened. This happens through the grace of God.
One day at a time.
