Trust on a cloudy day

It’s one of these days, where I prayed for peace the moment I woke up and all that has been happening to me is the opposite. Does God have a good sense of humor, or do I have no clue what’s going on? The good thing that I experienced today was, that I let myself be exactly the way I was, I felt bad and that’s just how it was. I think I have never gotten so many hugs. When I think back now I start to smile, out of nowhere people come just hugging me today. That’s so incredible. All those other days when I think I have it together, I am actually defending myself from love. I don’t have it together and I never will. But I will go out without knowing. With the trust that I am taken care of.

Right here and right now!

I can only get it right here and right now. This statement shook me up when it was mentioned this morning. It also made me very very happy and brought me into the present moment. All my ideas of future happiness and that anything will happen in the future that will be better than right here and now was gone. There is a lot of talk about being in the here and now, but to actually have an experience of it is quite something else. I saw the movie the peaceful warrior and it had a scene where the "master" asks the hero that time is it, and he answers now, and then where are you and the answer is here. And the main character uses that when he experiences a very intense moment and can push trough it through concentrating to it is now and I am here. Every time I remember that I have an experience.